I Took My Pants Off at Work

2011 has already proven to be a year of great change and challenge for me.
It started with a challenge from a friends blog to read the Bible in 90 days. I am now on day 28. I find myself looking forward to my 30 to 45 minutes of quietly delving into the most fantastical, mysterious, romantic story of all time.
Next came the dream. Actually, it is one that I have had numerous times throughout my life, but this time, something seems to have awakened me to it's call.

"I rolled out of bed running late to work as usual. Not having time to wash my face or even brush my teeth, I head out the door to work wearing nothing but my nursing cami, underwear, and a baby blanket. I am fully aware of my lack of appropriate clothing, but it doesn't bother me... I have to do my job. I sat at my desk in the corner of the store and was asked to help some customers with Western Union transfers. As I stood, I wrapped the baby blanket around my lower half, however the blanket only large enough to cover 3/4 of my body. Still, I was not concerned. At this point, I was beginning to notice that my being uncovered was making those around me uncomfortable and fidgetty. Yet I continued to do my job, just as I was."

I thought and thought about the dream, it's significance, why I wasn't uncomfortable (because I definitely would be horrified to be standing in my panties in public), and of course why the others were uncomfortable with me.

And then like a light bulb, I felt the invitation from Jesus to be exactly who I am, saying, thinking, doing "ME"... all the time... in every location and situation I find myself.

I responded:

I've got to have something real
Something real, like a Rock
Can't be moved around
Pushed around
Blown around
Something firm, like a Rock
Got to be real
Something like You
Like me being like You
Like a Rock
I can't take the endless chatter
Words void of life or force
Or experience
Or Truth.


I've got to be someone real.
Like you, like me being like You
Standing in the face of life
Not moved around
Pushed around
Blown around
Standing in the face of sadness
sorrow, pain,
Taking hold of the horns of the alter
Offering myself, giving who I am to You
So You can be given to them
Word full of life and force
Of experience
Of Truth
Like a rock
Me being like You like me
Saying what You say
Doing what You do

So the next day, I took my pants off at work :)
I said what I heard Him say to a vendor. I felt free in doing so, regardless of me appearing crazy or uncovered.
I did it again yesterday. The man didn't know what to think, I'm sure. But that's the point. The invitation was for me to be "ME", and not be consumed with those that are not me.
I'll be like a Rock.