I have been so fortunate to work in a home town grocery store where I am able to bring my youngest, Olivia, with me. I felt quite refreshed upon returning to my part-time job, due to six weeks of rest in the sanctuary of my home where we invited the peace of Jesus to reign as we adjusted to having the sixth member of our family join us. After the first week of work, I began to realize how toxic of an environment it had been to me ... a place that slowly allured my attention from what truly mattered to me ... Jesus. I became cynical, judgmental, selfish,and down right mean (not necessarily in action, but certainly in thought and attitude.) I had been overcome by the main spiritual stronghold in this rural area we live in ... poverty. I immediately repented, and determined in my heart to not only cover myself, but to be sure that Olivia was covered in this place as well.
I began streaming some worship through Pandora, but discovered that most of it was Christian Pop. Don't get me wrong, Christian Pop is fine, and I like a good bit of it. It just wasn't what Olivia and I needed to strengthen our spirits and to focus our hearts and minds. Somehow I was led to check out IHOP out of Kansas City and discovered the live streaming of the Prayer Room. After two minutes I was hooked. The combination of pure adoration and worship of God and intercession was exactly what I needed.
It also has reawakened something deep within... a reminder of my destiny, my purpose, my call. Something that I slowly walked away from years ago. It's funny how it feels to rediscover a passion. Joy, life, determination, focus. Yet sorrow, regret, and a longing for what was missed well up in my heart as well.
So, here I sit with these warring emotions.
And a spirit that senses great things to come.
Learning more of who I am
And who He is.
<3
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